Most people feel a lack of control in their lives. Whether it's their work, their body, their relationships or their finances, there always seems to be at least one area that isn't as they want it to be. Most often they then turn to an external source of control- clothing, exercise, cars, people, work, tv, social media or food. While these external 'things' provide a temporary fix they can never fill the need for control in the long term. This life long seek for control from an external source is a vicious circle that never ends. 
This has been my life, for a long time- I found certainty and control in clothes, shoes and makeup always searching for the next 'thing' trying to fill the gap between me and control. I thought this was happiness and control- really?! I was never fulfilled and always out of balance leaving me deflated and hating my life over my lack of control. I didn't think there was another way- I thought this must be life. 
I did lots of soul searching, read heaps of books and changed my lifestyle where I completely cut out most of the external things I was latching onto. Nothing changed, seriously nothing. 
I was frustrated annoyed and still deflated. 
Then there came a day- I was flustered, angry with the world and just plain mad- I was ready to give up everything, nothing was working. I unpacked this onto my coach who after calming me down and being super patient with me, brought me into a meditation where I discovered that the control i have been searching endlessly was already within me. Everything that I had been looking externally  for was already within me- control, variety, love and significance was already there inside me and I hadn't allowed myself the space to see that I already have everything I need. It doesn't come from my outside world or 'something'- it starts with me. 

OK SISTER, let me fill you in! I'm currently in Sydney! I am here for a training called 'Train the Trainer' and i am so thrilled to be here not only so i can be even more incredible in my business, but so i can share with you all the golden nuggets i am taking away so you can go out there and rock! 

Train the trainer is a part of the T. Harv Eker group of trainings that i have been doing since september last year. They add on to my Life Coaching courses and make me even more fabulous for you! I love the environment and being "back in the room" as you'll hear me say often! 

My biggest learning from the first day back in the training room today is that "the definition of greed is not sharing your gift". I first learned this while working for an athletic clothing company back in 2012 and its really stuck in my mind ever since! Hearing this again today really imprinted in to me even deeper and allowed me to really realise that i needed to share this with you so here i go!

"Who are you not to be yourself ellie?" is a question i have been asking myself for a while now. Why would we spend our lives trying so damn hard to be unique when really- isn't being authentic the easiest role to play? Think about it girl- It's so hard trying to be someone else- isn't it? Come on i know you know what I'm saying here! When we try and fit an image of unique we are actually masking our inner uniqueness or how i love to call it 'awesomeness' and its seriously hard work!

Then theres the next mind explosion that occurred today- who am i not to share my knowledge? It's super selfish of me to think everyone knows what i know- and i am sure not ok with putting myself down in a way that devalues my hard work! In fact, i know quite a lot about self-love, confidence, overcoming fear and being authentic. Ha! How incongruent of me to beat myself up! 

Its 12:30am and I'm super sleepy and need my beauty sleep! I'm back in training tomorrow and cannot wait to share with you tomorrow what I'm taking away from my course. 

Much love,

Elle xx

HEY BEAUTIFUL,

You know that feeling of knowing there is more to give but you just don't know how? or knowing your worth so much more that what your getting, but you really don't think your lucky enough to actually have everything you think you deserve? Do you ever feel like you can't show any sign of loving your life, body or achievements in the worry you may be judged? If you've answered yes at any point here- we must be twins!

I didn't always love my self, or my life for that matter! Self love has been a practice for me and like yoga and I have had to really work on it. The truth is, its taken me a long time to appreciate me and I'm still working on it- but gosh i love the feeling of celebrating me and owning my wins and opportunities.

you deserve to love you
It wasn't until 2012 that i truly began to self-appreciate and self-love! In this year I started practising all different disciplines of yoga, i worked for a large athletic clothing company who dared me to be courageous and celebrated my challenges and who taught me most of all to invest in me. I began my Life Coaching Journey later that year and fell even more in love with the work of Anthony Robbins. Since then i have attended many more trainings, travelled, ate amazing organic food and fallen in love with my   amazing man, Alberto. 

Self love is a journey, it takes time and you will love the process- pinky promise!    

This is what i am all about, i believe if you don't love you- you will never give yourself permission to love your life and therefore will always be longing for more never satisfied. Whats the point? Why would you want to live a life you don't love? for most people its a simple but unsatisfying way of living and is an easy one to maintain and so they keep living that way- I'm guessing because your here and still reading your not ok with living like this anymore, you want to squeeze all the juice and eat the pulp out of life, you want more success, you want more love and more happiness, you want to create a powerful and beautiful future, you want to see the whole world and leave a lasting legacy behind you that inspires others! 

I would love to hear about your journey, and help in anyway i can beautiful! 
Leave me a message below <3

XX Ellie